One and the Same August 6 2010, 09:09 am
Still lots of turmoil going on in my mind right now. I am very dissatisfied with my current situation, yet am impeded from moving forward by obstacles I do not control. So my mind continues to coil, coil, and coil some more. . . examining all the possible angles, looking for something. . . anything to solve this epic riddle that has been teasing me for years. Surrender is not an option, because this is far too important, and I will not repeat past mistakes. Yes this causes me great distress (and others around me to a lesser extent), but the soul seeks peace and completion. . . and only the soul matters, in the end. . .

I'll close off with words that another (Rob Dougan) has written, but is very fitting in my current situation. . .

Well I
Keep on waiting
For you to say
That your wait is over
And you've woken up in clover
Yeah
We're one and the same

Seems like
It's never ending
But good lights the way
Let's keep believing
That we're one
That we're one and the same
One and the same

Salvation, see it lights the way
Each time we see heaven
It slips away
So keep believing
Don't come undone
Keep on dreaming
Our day will come

We're one and the same
Two birds adrift on the wind
As life slips away
Let's keep believing
That we're one and the same
One and the same

Let's start living
Seize the day
Can't miss heaven
It's a step away
Let's keep persisting
Another day
Let's keep believing
Come what may

We're one and the same
Two hopeless dreamers
Wasting away
God has an order
We'll find a way
One and the same
One and the same

Posted by: Dark Paladin

Random musings July 22 2010, 11:01 pm
Much has transpired the past several years. Some good, some bad. Some cheerful, some heartbreaking. Yet the wheel of time turns. And life trudges on, ever so slowly, and painfully.

Since my exodus from Tejas, I have slowly lost touch with some friends. Have barely made a few new ones here in Crapifornia. Yet surprisingly. . . rediscovered a very old kindred spirit, one that was always in my heart, but to date have never met. . . interesting mystery, that one. One that we may yet solve one day.

Lots on my mind that I need to disgorge, but will have to sort them in some sort of fashion first. This is more for my sake than anyone else's. . .

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Posted by: Dark Paladin

Whoa. . . this thing still works?!? June 10 2009, 09:45 pm
heh. . . its been over two years since I used this thing. . . wonder if it still works. . .
Posted by: Dark Paladin